And here we are with the second half of my answers to 50 thought-provoking questions. I spent a bit more time on this set of questions than I did on Part 1, mostly because I struggled a bit with my answers.
Again, I hope you enjoy reading them and thinking of your own answers to these insightful questions. I love being able to challenge myself and expand my mind, and I encourage you to do the same 🙂 It’s fun to see where your mind goes with these thoughts!
- Would you rather lose all of your old memories, or never be able to make new ones?
I’m a nostalgic person. I feed off memories. I don’t know how I could live without either, so I’m going to take the easy way out by choosing not to choose.
- Is is possible to know the truth without challenging it first?
Anything is possible. I don’t know that the truth of something necessarily needs to be challenged before being believed. But maybe it needs to be looked at from all angles first, to prevent bias. I do believe in asking questions.
- Has your greatest fear ever come true?
Not yet, but I suppose since I’m still alive there’s a chance it could come to pass.
- Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset? Does it really matter now?
Yes, because it taught me how to love, how to cope, how be a stronger person, and how to be okay with being a weak person.
- What is your happiest childhood memory? What makes it so special?
I suppose one of my happiest memories isn’t exactly from childhood, but from my teen years. When I was in high school, I went to Disneyland on a rainy day with two of my good friends that I have known since the second grade. The three of us squeezed into one seat on Big Thunder Mountain, and we laughed our hearts out as the rain pounded on our faces during the ride. We rode Splash Mountain five times in a row because our photo kept “washing away” and we came up with a silly pose each time. It was perfect day.
- At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive?
When Mike and I traveled to Seattle last year, we visited the Snoqualmie Falls and I have never felt more alive recently than in the hour we stood watching the water. In that moment, I felt connected to nature, to the beauty and the life of it. I’m aching to experience that again.
- If not now, then when?
There’s no greater time than now.
- If you haven’t achieved it yet, what do you have to lose?
Nothing, I suppose. And this is what I keep telling myself, literally, every single day.
- Have you ever been with someone, said nothing, and walked away feeling like you just had the best conversation ever?
I often have this feeling when I watch documentaries or speeches that offer very thought-provoking and inspiring words.
- Why do religions that support love cause so many wars?
Because they don’t really understand or support love at all. Love is not forcing others to your way of life or view of how the world works. Love is about acceptance and compassion towards others.
- Is it possible to know, without a doubt, what is good and what is evil?
Not with everything, but I do believe that it is possible to know with certain things.
- If you just won a million dollars, would you quit your job?
As tempting as that would be, no I wouldn’t. I would probably try to find a job doing something that I greatly enjoy regardless of pay, since I would have money to rely on. But I have a tendency to spend money like crazy, so I would still need a source of income.
- Would you rather have less work to do, or more work you actually enjoy doing?
Less work to do. I always find a way to take too much on and it’s not beneficial to my anxiety.
- Do you feel like you’ve lived this day a hundred times before?
Yes. And thus begins my spiral into self hatred over why I’m struggling to change the way my life is being lived day after day if I’m not happy with it.
- When was the last time you marched into the dark with only the soft glow of an idea you strongly believed in?
Perhaps when Mike and I went to the Humane Society to adopt a kitten, and came home with Nymeria. I’ve always strongly believed that I need a cat in my life, that I had love and devotion waiting to be given to a furry creature. But I’m not sure we really thought about what we were doing, if we had done enough research or prepared enough to bring a cat home. It was a shot in the dark, for sure, but I will never regret doing it. Nym has brought me more joy than I ever imagined possible.
- If you knew that everyone you know was going to die tomorrow, who would you visit today?
Immediately my parents, my sister, and my grandparents. Then I’d book a plane ticket to the east coast, and visit my relatives who have made such an impact on my life. If that was out of the realm of possibility, I’d spend the entire day phoning every family member and close friend I have, so I could enjoy that last meaningful conversation with each person.
- Would you be willing to reduce your life expectancy by 10 years to become extremely attractive or famous?
No, fame has never appealed to me and I love the way I look. I don’t need to be extremely attractive and famous to have a fulfilling life. I don’t believe anyone does, but to each their own.
- What is the difference between being alive and truly living?
I suppose I would define truly living by taking full advantage of your life; doing the things that make you happy, going to places you’ve been yearning to go, loving without being afraid of what’s to come of it. I think we all aspire to truly live, but the pressure to “make a living” according to society’s way keeps us from doing so, and thus we resort to simply being alive.
- When is it time to stop calculating risk and rewards, and just go ahead and do what you know is right?
When your gut tells you to do it.
- If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake?
For fear of being judged, both my ourselves and others. Fear of being set back, of having to start over, of being shamed and mocked, and being in the wrong. And fear of failure, above all, is why I think we are afraid to make a mistake.
- What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you?
I’d be open about the true version of myself that I don’t feel comfortable enough to reveal to others.
- When was the last time you noticed the sound of your own breathing?
During exercise. I’m such a heavy, loud mouth-breather because I’m in such terrible shape. It always makes me a bit self-conscious.
- What do you love? Have any of your recent actions openly expressed this love?
My cat, my family, my friends, Disneyland, reading, knitting, writing. The last three could use a bit of work, to be honest.
- In 5 years from now, will you remember what you did yesterday? What about the day before that? Or the day before that?
I’m sure I’ll remember yesterday, but maybe not the day before that, although perhaps the day before that day. My goal is to make every day memorable.
- Decisions are being made right now. The question is: Are you making them for yourself, or are you letting others make them for you?
I’m happy and proud to say that there are currently very few, if any, decisions being made for me by others. It took a long time to get here.